Wednesday, July 9, 2014

A Letter to Self

Dear Self,

You've spent my entire life making trouble for me. From the moment I entered this world, you were trumpeting your propaganda about how I was the center of the universe, that the purpose of everyone's lives was to serve me, and that my ultimate goal should be doing whatever was necessary to secure my own comfort and happiness. You told me that if I didn't want to do something, I didn't have to. I have rights. I'm entitled. It was never my fault, but always someone else's. You said that if it felt right, I should do it. "Go ahead," you said, "eat that food. So what if it isn't 'healthy' or 'nourishing' to your body? It tastes good, and that's all that matters. It won't hurt just this once." Remember when I used to stay up until the wee hours of the morning and sleep until lunchtime? You're the one who said it was fine. And every time I pushed my responsibilities to the side and chose laziness? That was your doing, too. Every apathetic thought, every moment I chose lesser things over precious time with the Lord, and every second I spent watching television instead of "looking well to the ways of my household," I can trace directly back to you. Do you want to know something? I'm sick of you, and from this day forward, I will do whatever I can to get rid of you.

God has a lot to say about you, and He's been reminding me of His words lately:
"For if we have become united with Him in the likeness of His death, certainly we shall also be in the likeness of His resurrection, knowing this, that our old self was crucified with Him, in order that our body of sin might be done away with, so that we would no longer be slaves to sin..." -Romans 6:5-6
"Everyone who competes in the games exercises self-control in all things. They then do it to receive a perishable wreath, but we an imperishable." -1 Corinthians 9:25
"But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law." -Galatians 5:22-23
"But you did not learn Christ in this way, if indeed you have heard Him and have been taught in Him, just as truth is in Jesus, that, in reference to your former manner of life, you lay aside the old self, which is being corrupted in accordance with the lusts of deceit, and that you be renewed in the spirit of your mind, and put on the new self, which in the likeness of God has been created in righteousness and holiness of the truth." -Ephesians 4:20-24
"Do not lie to one another, since you laid aside the old self with its evil practices, and have put on the new self who is being renewed to a true knowledge according to the image of the One who created him- a renewal in which there is no distinction between Greek and Jew, circumcised and uncircumcised, barbarian, Scythian, slave and freeman, but Christ is all, and in all." -Colossians 3:9-11
"For where jealousy and selfish ambition exist, there is disorder and every evil thing." -James 3:16
"Now for this very reason also, applying all diligence, in your faith supply moral excellence, and in your moral excellence, knowledge, and in your knowledge, self-control, and in your self-control, perseverance, and in your perseverance, godliness, and in your godliness, brotherly kindness, and in your brotherly kindness, love." -2 Peter 1:5-7
I'm on to you. I know your games, and I'm tired of playing them. I acknowledge your existence in my life, and I call you what you are: false, deceptive, evil, rude, murderous, unloving, arrogant, selfish. The sacrifice of Jesus Christ was too great for me to heed you any longer. Because of Him, I am no longer your slave. I am under your control no more. Yes, there will probably be times when you try and sneak your way back into my life. But keep your suitcase handy, because I can promise you it will be a very short stay. You are dead to me, and I to you. Goodbye, my old companion. May we never meet again.

Sincerely,
Sara